These Is Why I'm a loner

I'm smiling. So? the hell with it, i'm tired.

You said that you love me. when i loved you back,

you turn your back on me.

Yesterday I found out about you,

and even now I'm still thinking about you.

When I text you,you wouldn't reply. So it's annoys me.

You knew that you didn't love me anymore.

But what am I to do? I'm still stuck to you.

As I paced back and forth this days because I believed in you.

Holding on to those sweet remedy of your words.

Stupid girl, I should've known...

But I can't resist this! the hell I can't resist this!

Before you go please tell me this,

was it worth it? was she worth this?!

You should've said no Nazren. you should've said no to her.

F**kin perfect

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, but never the same.
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

He's Love Is All She Knows

Name : Khairin Afina

Age : 17 going on 18

Occupation : Future designer

status : single but silents

Blog : http://musicluvr118.blogspot.com/

Recently she's been dealing with bullshit and

craps all over again after the frustrating 2010.

She've been lied. She've been deceived, She've been persuaded.

She've been denied. She've been called a loner. She've been crying.

She yelled and acted like a mad woman..but even with all of those

experience, she's never tired of smiling all over again. and I do

admire her for being like that. Kak khairin, I know that you are

a lot of hell more stronger than those other woman out there.

And besides, we're here to support you akak. just stay calm okay?

i've been there and i'm fine because of yours and the others supports

for me akak. so i'm doing the same to you. BE SAFE akak. :)

The End Of March Test

There are absolutely no other weeks that was so freakishly not fun

like this one. It was the March test for SMK Putrajaya P8(1)...

and one more time! I'M A FORM 4 STUDENT! oooooyeaaahhhhh.

the test was not quite easy. especially for Account,

i just HATE the facts that i can't answer it -.-'

addmaths my favorite over all of those subject~ haha.

I receive an A for that subject :P. kehkehkeh...

Alhamdulillah thank you Allah :)

So tonight, Saturday night... i've been skyping with Izmeer Aduka

(ceh name nak hebat, haha)AND! the one and Only

My Kak Khairin Sayang <3!

awesome senior i've ever met let me tell you that.

she's my back bone :D. hehe akak! you rock my mind!

:D

(The skype box when I was skyping with her)

(and this is just me fb-ing with nazren :])

Sunday Macaroons

ooohhhyeeeeeaaaaaaahhh!

my first trial of chocolate macaroons and it came out great!

Alhamdulillah, :D.

took my mom lots of money to buy the ingredients though, haha.

it was a tiresome though. to do the whisking was okay lah.

but the part to put it into the piping beg was so damn annoying -.-'

but then again, i receive a great call back. haha

Friday, new start heh?

Mariam's weather forecast:

Morning, we celebrate THE CHOSEN ONE's birthday,

PROPHET MUHAMMAD SAW...it was fun! everyone had a blast! :D

The day start with a smile on my face as if nothing never happened.

And it is.. NOTHING ever happened... I never knew you,

I never met you, I never talked to you, I never smiled at you,

I never know your name, I never came to you, I never say sorry to you,

I never stand beside you. I was a dreamer. and if I do met you.

it's only a dream, a very forceful dream I've ever had.

Thursday Tragedy

MARIAM'S WEATHER FORECAST:

The whole day I've waited for what you have to said to me... THE WHOLE

FUCKING DAY I'VE WAITED and all that you can do is to tell what

you wanted to say to someone else by saying ''kau ni terlampau ambik

serious sangatla. benda REMEH-TEMEH ni kau rilek sudeeeee.....''

FUCK YOU LA remeh temeh!. Aku tak nak langsung gaduh dengan kau.

gile sucks doh. agak lah sikit nak kate

bende tu remeh de! wa bako lu gak kang! x(. It's funny that you think

you really know me, it's even funnier that you think you really

know yourself and I was all up to think that THIS can be fix..silly silly me.

the strange's thing is that when ever i'm almost get over you completely,

you pulled me in for another round. WHAT THE HELL?!

are you crazy? why are you like this? being beside you,

seeing you is suffocating... Please disappear from my sight.

Cut the crap and get a hold of yourself and stop it!

I loved you ones and twice but I don't now.

i'm erasing you from my memory.

Typical Wednesday

Didn't go to school today. Ohhhhhyeeeeaaaaaahhhhhh!!! xD

Had some 'ISSUES'. So yeah... It was kinda awesome staying home while

other people are going to school. meh meh meh. BUT! even though i was absent,

I STILL studies at home kayyyyy. huhu.

Tuesday's

Mariam's weather broadcast:

It was morning and it was raining heavily just like how my heart was back then.

The news that will be told about several minutes from I get out from the car.

I heard what you have to said but so poor that it came form someone else's mouth.

Why can't you build up the courage that you have and come to face me?

By then the things you only know is just mock me behind my friggin' back.

You know that you just don't need me anymore so you just decided to leave.

On evening I stayed back at school with my classmates and schoolmates to

attend our add math class. It was exciting and not an exhausting at all.

It's all thanks to Idris, Izmeer and Erik because they would accompany me

for me to attend the class even though it's not their class.THANK YOU DUDES!