thank you for that

you guys just love it to make me sad and cry ha?!
why? answer me why? i've ask you whats your
problem and we've talked about it, but why do
you still do it? I don't want you to think that
we're so smart and you're not that good to be
friend with us. I dont want you to feel like that!
im sad when you said that.where is the guy that
i've known all this year? the one that always give
his idea and fight for what he wants? where is the
guy that always there when we're in trouble? where
is our leader? where is the guy that i've been waiting?
where is he? is he gone? i dont think so..he's still there,
somewhere inside that kind and gentle heart...i know
he's still there.he just dont want to come out because
he's just shy and to stubborn.all this time, i dont want to
give any pressure on you, but i was wrong..you're the one
that giving me pressure that i've been facing all this days..
i taught that if i saw you everyday i'll get better and calm
but i was wrong...God! why those life always feel like
battlefield! aaarggghhh! i never want to start a war with
you..but why do you have to be so stubborn?! i've cried 2
times because of you! do i even have to face this stupid
problem?! i've tried to understand you! and i did it, but
why can't you understand me?! can you even notice the
way i treat you? or do you even know that im alive? is it so
hard to understand a girl heart? yeah maybe is those but
do you have to do this? i don't wanna fight with you again!
i've fight with you once and it hurts so much. I hope we'll
be okay again. please. begging you.